when we sang the same song over and over again, the process had become so often that it's treated as an routine have we ever ponder the meaning of the song.? most probably not. thus, singing it become insignificance it nor longer carry same weight as the "good old days"
In this world, we are often faced with tribulation and obstacle. this is a fact which is inevitable and undeniable, people suffers from a lot of factors, domestically and commercially. and thus, they strive to achieve a better living life, to provide sufficient food and shelter to their family. in the process of it we may lost things, some which are important, and some which are not. they become busier and busier as days goes by, till the extent that they have forgotten the most basic thing of all. Not long ago, i got struck by this (what i call) "inspiration". it came across which i was singing a hymn.
Since human being are pursuing a better life, most of our time are spent in our job as we strive to be on the top of the list, in doing so, we've forgotten a very important yet basic thing which posses in the ancient times, our believe. if we're one believer, we would know that human being always uses a very powerful and simple excuse to get them self out this, they would say that "I'm busy" any yet, they can come out with tons and tons of reasons just to back up that reasons. have u ever wonder what might God replied.?
*before that let me exclude myself, everything which is mention here is only my own feeling*
the answer could be possibly found at the first verse in the hymn 297, " I gave my life to thee My precious blood I gave. . . . .I gave I gave My life to thee, what hast thou giv'n to Me."
This is indeed true, the Lord gave up his life for us, he gave us everything including his own life. but on the other hand what had we given to him.? we cannot give up our pleasure, habits, time and etc.
Human, we are very selfish we will keep everything to our self, priorities our self above others. even if we had extra most likely we would keep to our next keen if not we would just keep it to our self. more often than not, we will reserve everything to our self the concept of giving others the "extra" didn't even cross to our mind at the first place.
thinking back now, what had we given to Him.? i think most of us will come out with a bundle of list saying this and that, but are the things is what He really needs?giving is a problem itself to us, but giving the right things is even more a major problem to us, it's even more hectic.
He gave us the thing we need the most -not really much- but it is what we needs the most, a salvation plan. In contras, what had we given to Him.?we cal always repay Him by giving our time to Him more, converse with Him, striving to live a godly life. i believe that what He wants from us is i godly nation, a nation in His likeness.
p/s: sorry if i offended any of my readers. n/t: once again, everything typed here is of my feeling.
yesterday is really not my day, i got jammed in klang itself for 30mins, and some occasion happened making me late for my class, i reached college at 2.45pm, gosh I'm later for class by 45 min! and so i was a bit heaty (heng) by then, what really burst me is that upon despite being late for class, the class ends at around 3.15pm, which also means that I've traveled 2 hour of journey for a half an hour class. i just cant take it, I'm like this, i feel that my journey there is not worth the time spent to college there and the time spent in class does not meet. i was cool when i was on my way back to klg, no worries.
i got a text yesterday from a junior of mine, it was just too sweet, without knowing it i replied him as usual. he told me that he got read an article which says keeping in touch with your loves one..and then he text me just to keep-in-touch..how sweet it's never in my mind that he'll do that to me. it makes my day..it really do. Thx
so things to do next:
read my notes (Ctt,Public,Criminal adn CLRI)
try to find out some question just to make Mrs.Anne faint, we succeed doing it to our Ctt tutor, she the next target.!
do my ctt assignments which to be hand up after deepavali break, i wanna have a break - days with no education burden.!
so that's about all gua..
p/s: i miss the aunty pork mee..shall we go there tomorrow? hehe..
Feel so good to be here after not being here for so long, so where should I start first? I got motivated by Mrs.Anne when she told us that all she was teaching is only 50% of her knowledge, she will gives us the other half if and onlyif we qualified our self, in other words to be worthy of it. When she made this statement I said on my heart, “I’m so going to get the 100% of yours, not only 100% but 120% of what u know” of course achieving it is not easy as most of us know, with my lackadaisical attitude it is almost impossible, but what I’m happy about today tutorial is that during contract tutorial we made so much argument that I can feel that Mrs.Irene almost went faint because of it, in fact some of our argument was praised for it. I can really see that we’re going that direction all thanks to our class politicsI don’t know whether it is ok for me to reveal my class politics here) , digging out the inner organs of our tutor [we’re so mean]. And so, concerning Common law reasoning and institution (CLRI), Mrs.Mary came in, sadly only three of us read Lon Fooler’s parable. She was so upset that she spent half an hour telling us the importance of reading and studying before entering to tutorial classes. Since only three of them done the reading, so she decide to stay back for half an hour just to have a sassy with them on the parable. The rest will not have a chance to gain that knowledge. Personally, I think that Mrs.Mary take this opportunity to let us know the importance of reading and also the seriousness that she trying to convey to us, so no more going to class with an empty mind anymore. Secondly, I’ve become much more busy lately reason? I have to plan for a trip, finished up all my assignments and etc. being in intermediate it’s really different from what I use to be in. A change in pace, different style of approaches and on top of it the difference opinion between tutor and lectures. Nevertheless, we still have to find a way through. Our research question has already came into our hand, currently still having trouble over choosing the question. HRA? Bias? Legal aid?*Headache*
Secondly, I do not know whether it is a good news or a bad news, the SPS class will be commenced starting from this Saturday, which means I have to choose between church and college, the class is from 2pm to 4 pm. I’m still thinking a way out. It would not be ideal to have arrangement like this, the least not for me.! Skipping class will not brings any edification to me as I’ll miss my subject matter and skipping church is also not my way of doing it. Hopefully the administrator changed our "SPS" class to the night, I rather go back home late. However, everything is not in my control, thus I can only crap here.
It's the first day after Raya break, woke up at 8.30am and then took the bus at 9.00am (as usual). the air smell the same, the sun still shining brightly there nothing is different. the feeling of forcing myself up early in the morning is still the same, NOT GOOD. i'm a great sleeper, not heavy, but great! thus, waking up early in the morning is indeed not my way of life, but what to do, I'm still obliged to go to college this morning..sobs
reached col at 5 past 10am not an ideal way to kick start, especially after raya break. upon reaching the class room, Mr.Patrick was there teaching contract.
1st thing in mind - what in the world would bring Mr.Patrick here today?
I came to know that he's replacing Mrs.Munita which is our contract lecture as she's not around the college, hmm..about his teaching? nah, still the same blurred way of teaching. at the end of the day, most of his student would not understand a single thing he taught. so, most of us siting down there wasted 1 hour and 15 minute, trying our very best just to at lest look like we're paying attention on the class reason for that? to avoid question being post..keke
one class gone and three more to go, Mrs.Neera was a bit late for the class but nevertheless, she still manage to finish her part, we finished the whole chapter on constitutional conventions, learn about some historical event, interesting. . .off with that
surprising lecture for Criminal was not like the first class, this time he take it slower and much more steadier. .understand better than the first class, gosh! i love criminal law, but sadly i'm not encourage to practice on Criminal dispute. .thus, learning it for me is just merely a knowledge, i cant bring it to the next level. .but the sacrificial is worth the price (n_n).
last lecture of the day, Mrs.Anne. we was told that the separation of tutorial classes will commence starting tomorrow, hopefully Mr.Daniel would not be teaching CLRI and if he do, i really hope that i don't get picked on. .the lec by Mrs.Anne is as usual, great every single this was explained by her in detail nothing was lack out and we managed to finish the whole chapter also..
after all lecture, on the way to the main door, i passed by A-lvl department looking in, i saw Mrs.Sivanesse, upon seeing her i'm very happy she's the lecture which i honor so much during A-lvl, she liken to a mother to us, teaching us whatever she knows and she's willing to go beyond that just to let us understand the subject. i approached her and we talked, due to time factor we cant talked much, she told me that she's happy knowing that i got through my a-lvl especially pulling up the grade of my Lit. subject and after that she have to leave as the wan to escape the traffic jams.
overall, today was indeed a great day I've been longing to see Mrs.Sivaness, on top of that i understand most of the lec held.. =P
Yesterday all inter student was force to stay back for a talk given by (i forgot his name) anyway, he's someone important in this program I've passed up my application form before that and meet Ms.Jeya tell u what i hate her a lot, she's so ego, acting like she's the boss of the col. even Mrs.Anne who is her superior did not act in such way. One thing for sure, she is the Pn.Dana we have back i high school.
Okie, stop talking about that. so the talk held by this guy, its was fun, he knows how to make tons and tons of lame joke to keep everyone awake, sitting in front of me was puteri, the session with him is from 6.30pm till 8.30pm and thus as she was fasting, she dont get to have a meal when they "buka puasa" it's actually pitiful to see her in such condition, hungry and yet did not get to eat when they can eat.
So, in the talk we was thought how to answer our question and the way of approach we should use.. he taught us the "IRAC" way of doing it. it was actually useful. the talk end at about 8pm and we go back to Klang.
10 more hours to go, to go to college, go to college to have my first class, the first class of my intermediate, the pathway of my career.
finally I'm a law student, and tomorrow is my first day of class, starting with contract then public law continued by criminal and CLRI. after that? balik kampung, rushing buka puasa lols..
i wonder who will be my lecture, at first when Douglas commented on my status, i have this strong feeling that he'll be? will he/she be new? what ever how she/he is, so long as my lecteru are not like my english literature lecture (the male one) then i'm fine with it.
today is the 5th of sept, i guess no one love sept. more than u do the month u've been waiting for through out the year i guess u've been waiting for it for like 364 days
tho its not complex and it may not be the best, all i can do here is wishing u a very happy birthday,
HAPPY B'DAY LILI
it's also my first time wishing u happy birthday..
Another life had been added into this big family of mine..!! this time they life which is added in has the combination of "XX" yup a "XX" it's a she!!, my third aunt little princess.
Today is her 14th day on earth, her fortnight..tell u something, today is her 14th day on this planet and it's also her first encounter with his cousin(me). we've tried many attempt, planning and all those stuff, but in the end all the plan did not go on due to my lackadaisical attitude.
I'm really regret that it's only today I've meet her.. i should have meet her earlier, she's such a beauty a beauty among beauties, she had the beauty of all her three sisters.
Merely by hearing all these would not help readers to understand and admire her beauty, thus, attached here with her beauty pictures..
Just realize that all my post are super out dated. so goes this post, this will also be an outdated post too. on the 10th of august, i went back col. to get my a-level result. the result will be released at 2pm and thus, as usual i took a bus and reached there five minute to two. upon reaching col. i text Julius to check out his location, he replied " 6th floor" and so i went to 6th floor after reading his text.
Tens of people was there, for the same aim. we're all nervous, well most of us was nervous but nervous feeling fled away with the warmth of our classmate, waited for two hour and then at last it's my turn to get my result
while entering the meeting room, my heart pumps even faster, from the entrance i can see Mr.Guna sitting right at the end of the room, Mr.Sara was beside me, this give me even more pressure.
approached Mr.Guna and the he start searching for my result.
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after awhile, he gave me my result. i passed! though it's not what i aimed, but the lest i passed.. Thank God for His guidance and care that I'm able to passed my a-level
Yea, the moment I’m waiting for. Last day of work..yeppie (^-^)
Working is actually not that hard but, I just wan to have some rest that’s, all. Since today, is the last day of my work, I resolve to enjoy the day of the work till it last. Hopefully I can.
Went to lunch with mrs.pheno and kak ma. The lunch was great but the atmosphere was not that good. Not much conversation held during lunch time, there’s some joke but we didn’t talk through out the lunch, there’s some silence moment.
one more day to go, just now while I was managing my waste papers they thought thath I’m cleaning the table =). Oh, I forgot to introduce kak.Nagama, an accountant and also a good cook, if she typical Indian shop here the shop will surely be famous wan. How I know it? Remember that day I mention about mr.seah birthday? 80% of the food is cooked by her, she had to bring all the food to here all the way from banting. It is not an easy job as she had to wake up early morning to cook and then prepare herself before coming to the office. I like her curry and her vegetarian meat, it just taste delicious. Yummy~
by the way, back to our story, when kak ma saw me cleaning up the waste papers she told mr.chandran and it’s heard by kak nagama thus, she called me and said “Jos, so fast want to clean your table and go off ad a?” of course I replied and she continues “ y wan to go so fast? We will miss u.” and the there was no reply from me.
This morning, finished typing all my errors that I’ve made and than searching for tomorrows file. Done searching and finished amending and now typing this post.hehe. I misused my time in eh office again.
One thing that I hoped to accomplish now is that I can finish amending all my flaws, leaving no amending work of mine for others to do.
Had a short chat with di, I’ve been quite long since I last chat with him, mostly because I was busying about the examination and the I was not free to entertain him. Of course all those has been the past and now I got time to entertain him.
It’s 112pm now and I started to feel hungry d, recently I ate a lot, really a lot I did not know what is the cause of this but, I really ate a lot, gaining weight ad. Gosh, I’m really hungry now, really really hungry now, I can eat a whole cow now.
Btw readers, still remember yesterday that text? In actual fact, the text was sent to me on the 28th which means it is the day before yesterday, and thus when I typed about “tomorrow” it was actually yesterday, and so since it is a past then, the reminder can be said to be useless now. “lantak dia la” who cares for those who don’t care rite?
Gat a text today asking me weather I’m free this Saturday, I know what they are up to, but sadly I wont be there the reason is not that I do not want to be there the reason is that there will be presentation on that day and so I had to skip the thing. In actual fact I did not feel like going also. Hehe..
haha..2more days before I leave this office. One thing for sure, I wont miss them, this is because they did not really show their concern for new colleague and most of them only mind their own business, recently I’m starting to hate an Indian colleague of mine, she had the bird voice just like Pn.Dana. I’m wondering weather she got any connection with her if not where dose she get that super sharp and annoying noise? On top of all just like Pn.Dana she likes to boss around, acting like she’s the boss gosh give me a break. I can vomit if I see you. You want to be a boss? OMG! If I see it, it would be the end of the world. Thank God I realize this at this end time of work, if not I’ll be suffering throughout the month.
Oh, about yesterday? I went to high school and found out that non of my friends were there. Thus, my mood is not there, recently I can’t ply badminton, is not that I’m restricted or what so ever, but I’m not plying like how I used to play. After one month of not grabbing that racket (which it starts from mid June to mid July), my form, skills and swiftness are not there anymore. It’s really hard to train back all those things especially when my sport session had been reduce from thrice a week to once a week. When I grab that racket, I fell that I’m like me when I was in form3, which is also the when I first indulge into the world of badminton. Everything starts form zero and slowly we climb up the ladder together. Or should I start with tennis? I’m actually quite fond of plying tennis. If I were to choose tennis is my second choice of sports. So readers, should I start with tennis or go on with badminton?
Just received a text from someone whom I do not want to see nor talk to her/him. She/he is not trying to get me into a chat/conversation but a simple reminder about tomorrow, A date which I forget all the time, when I saw that text, it stir my anger even more, because it’s form him/her reminding me of him/her. I really did not know how one could make such a great mistake and then hiding behind another. This is even worst, in this case he/she is staying behind a big “Bah Zang” (it’s a traditional Chinese cuisine. Main Ingredient: rice, mushroom, meat and others side ingredient wrapped in some kind of leaves). Y cant he/she just stands out and says what he/she wants? It’s truly a corrupted world.
Still remember about the great job yesterday? Photocopying 700+ pages of jaw journal yesterday? Well, today my job is even great, I get to read that entire law journal and find out all the quotation from the plaintiff’s bundle of appeal one by one and highlight it. Great isn’t it? We, it took me four to five hours of readings and readings. This is my 1st experience reading 700 pages in four to five hours. Now my eye also blur blur already.
Now I remember that today is Wednesday, thanks to this diary because as u can observe, in the bottom of every post of mine, there it is written the date and the day. Thus, while I was about to close my post I’ll take a look at the calendar for the date and day. Hmm, I remember it for mow, but I’m not sure weather I can remember that today is Wednesday when I got home.
really lazy to go to work today, I don’t know why, it seems that y body is reluctant to exert it’s energy. When the alarm rang at 8.00am today I snooze it, I still remember that I snooze it about three times, it’s only at 8.15am I’m waking up, taking my own sweet time to the toilet, brush y teeth and then went down to have my breakfast which we’ve prepared last night. It’s a “we” which means, I prepared it together with my younger brother and elder sister last night and so this breakfast should not be consumed by only me by they too. When I went to the freezer this morning I saw that the tuna, which we made last night is still there as perfect as if no one ever had touched it. Then I start thinking to myself *how come they didn’t even care to eat it? * not to mention that, they (my younger brother and sister) didn’t even care to take the bread down, this proved that they must had been in the same state as me, lazing around on the bed till the 11th hour and then start moving, or they really forgot about the breakfast which we’ve made there’s only two possibility I cant and I do not want to think for the 3rd as I do not want to se my brain.
Today everything to me is like slow, moody and most importantly boring, maybe it’s my lackadaisical attitude this morning which makes all things come together, imagine taking about one and a half hour just to amend a single draft, it’s obviously not the usual me, usually it took only the most 45min to amend a draft, see how lazy am I this morning, and so now it’s twelve in the afternoon, what am I waiting for? LUNCH of course. =)
At last I can sit, finished printing 700 pages of law journal, standing there from 2pm till 5.30pm. My ankle is now aching. Tonight I still have badminton, do not know what will I be like tonight. Dead meat? Or standing there waiting for the ball to find me? Who knows? The answer will be revealed tomorrow.
At lest the thing I’ve done today is one of the things which I’ve never done before since I enter this office.
I didn’t know weather I’ve miscalculated the days of my work, someone told me that today is the 18th day of my work. According to the daily report that I’ve make, it’s the 19th day. After checking, it’s confirmed that today is the 19th day of me work.
I’ve set the time on my phone yesterday, And so when I was sleeping soundly, sweetly and deeply and suddenly my phone rang. It’s a text, when I looked at the time, the time on my phone shows that it’s 7.00++ in the morning. Thus, i went back to sleep again, not long after that another alarm rang, I woke up and looked at the time on my phone, it shows about 7.15am, this alarm rose my curiosity, normally no alarm will ring before 8am in my house (except for my younger brother and sister alarms) and so I wake up to check the actual time, went out and check with the most reliable time in our house and it shows 8.17am. at this point I realize that I’ve set the time wrongly yesterday, I’ve set it earlieran hour!, which makes my alarm ring later by an hour. Gosh! With the shock, quickly I urgent to the bathroom finished with my morning procedure and then went down for breakfast. After breakfast, went up again to bath and
*Vroom*…working place here I come..!!
Reached office, it’s ten past nine everything is normal and so I just walk to my place and on the computer, typing this post, and suddenly kak ma appeare beside me. *Got the shock of my life* according to her, mrs. Pheno is again on leave, no one knows the reason for it, but one thing for sure, today is not going to be a good day, without mrs pheno, things are going to be a bit messy.
And so it realty dose happen, mrs. Pheno not here and then the show began, first things 1st, one of us having a hard time finding a file which took him/her hours to find it.
Secondly, mrs pheno client called and wanted to spoke to her, mr.chandran took most of the calls and not knowing anything. He also cant do anything much, so it’s a waste of time, the client on the phone was getting upset about the little knowledge that he has about the case. Thirdly, a file was missing, we cant able to find the file, don’t know where they put it. There is a correspondent need to be filed in.
And so after all those accusing and findings, we decide to let it be, the file will show up itself when we lest expect it. And so we went back to our work.
Yea! Friday again, I don’t know why, but once it reached Friday I’m always motivated to work. Hmm, because after Friday then I’ll be having break for 2 days? Most probably.
Every time when it reached Friday, the feeling is different for any other days. Typed a letter from a draft written with an almost unreadable hand writing, I admit that my hand writing is bad as per words of Mrs.Sivanese but his writing is for more worst than mine. Having hard time reading his handwriting. Yea, as usual translation work again this time it’s much more easier than the previous one. Completed by 5pm. -24th day of July- -Friday-
Yesterday was a great moment, Ze Ping Jie came back from Taiwan yesterday, in actual fact, se just reached Malaysia yesterday noon and then she came by to our house at 6 In the evening. Imagine the long hours of flight, tiredness and the journey that they had gone through and yet they still have the energy to come by to our house to visit her. I believe their energy is motivated by the two babies we had in our home..keke..xP
When she reached our home, most of us did not now, it’s until we saw “yi chian”(her son) we realize that Ze ping Jie had reached Malaysia, It was rather a surprising moment. We did not expect to see her that soon! We thought that she would be coming together with the visiting group, which they will arrive next week. She really gave us a big surprise.
When I saw her at the staircase of the house (I was on the ½ floor and she was on her way up), upon seeing me, she says, “ don’t say a word” (the real conversation is in Chinese, translation are for the benefit of those who don’t understand Chinese)
Then she starts recollecting her memories. .
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*suddenly*
“HAO HAO ! !” *Then I started hopping there*
I was so happy that she didn’t forget my name, how could one remember one name especially after almost 10years of no audio and visual contact. It’s hard and it takes one who has super memorial power to do so. Indeed she’s one, no doubt.
She says that she’ll be here for about a month, I do really hope that I can bring the visiting group around as I was free on the month of August and that I could spend more time with her.
For those who just knew Ze Ping Jie, a brief introduction will be held here, Ze Ping Jie is my church member and she was married to a Taiwanese thus, she’s at Taiwan all these while and Ze Ping Jie is another person who can control me when I was then a kid. Not many people can control me during my childhood, it takes much patience and nurseling skills to get me. (will blog about my childhood next time).
Then she urgent to the 1st floor to look for my aunt Bao Ti, (my aunt, her best friend, mother of the twins). They started chitchatting and talking about their life experience and etc. their stay last about two hour, when the clock struck eight, they left for church (there’s a night prayer session).
After they left, I went out and came back around nine something and then urgent for my movie session. Upon entering the cinema, I (walked in front) mislead the other three to the row “D” instead of “C” we didn’t realize that we’re on the wrong row until someone said “are we not in the 3rd row? Y we’re at the 4th wan? should we change?” replied “ just wait until someone come only we change” not a minute in, the overseer came and throw us back to the 3rd row, at that time the movie was about to start. How embarrassed we are at that time.
Half way through the movie, one of my friend yawn, in fact not once, he yawned throughout the movie, actually he dislike the movie but somehow, we manage to forced him there hehe, we’re bad.
Yea! There’s a night market tonight, cant wait for it. But I always also buy the same stuff wan. Still not bored of eating the same stuff every Thursday, somehow in sometime I will. Grew a bit fat lately.
Done with the amendment that has to be don’t to a work in which I’ve completed last week, then typed out a letter, called other legal firm on request for a copy of summons and after all that I’m again here roaming freely around the office. People often say that working is hard, u have to work work work and u cant good rest. Well I say, the hardest tings is not working part, the hardest thing is that u have to be in the office having no work to do, all u can is just sitting there doing nothing, idle, stagnant and immobile. -Wednesday- -22 of July-
it seems that my source work now nor longer comes form mrs.pheilo nor ganesh instead mr balan is giving me work.. I was summon by him a few times today and I was stunted when I got the news from my colleague that he wants me. as u can see, I’m following part of his cases, and all the cases I followed are his case. Thus, I think I can conclude that my presumption was right on the first place. Okay, just finished translating something from English to BM again. I hate BM, everytime when I was needed to translate from English to BM I explode my head thinking of the term in BM of course. Y dose the court set legal filing in BM? Y cant they just standardise everything to English? I guess some questions are not meant to be question. Especially when we’re living in these circumstances. After translation work, I got nothing to do again, the only work which I have is searching law books for mr.balan, it’s not a task of mind, all we need is a very powerful eye. Since a library was installed in this office, I don’t see the difficulties of finding it, found about six to seven books and passed to him all the books. After that, I went back to my beautiful couch and then start my “SS” session. Sitting there alone doing nothing, the most I can do is drawing which is one that I’m not good at. Sited there till 6pm then as usual cabut again. One thing I realize, I always tend to be late to work, punctual to lunch, late from lunch and punctual to go off. Great isn’t it? I also feel the same.
some people said it’s hard to know what’s on my mind, it seems that they cannot get a single idea of what am I thinking at that point of time, maybe it’s because of my introvert attitude. I rarely share my feelings or opinion with others, this is because it’s not easy for me to trust a person. If I were to make a chart of my level of classification via time it can be summarised as :-
0 - 2 years : outer circle 2 - 4 years : on the circumference 4 –5 years : friends / close friends 5 years and above : inner circle.
See how hard it takes to be in my inner circle. It takes years and years of hard work and reliance for me to classified them as one.. Thus, with the chart I can conclude that I don’t really have much friends hehe.. There are also incident where some of them are in my classification of inner circle within a year. I do not know how it happens but it dose happened before
You might see me calling most of the guys/girls as my friends, babe and etc. thou I called them that, I do not mean it as I said. It’s not an outward expression of the inner heart, the reason of me called them that? Just to make us feel more comfortable when we’re together.
To me friends are the treasure of the earth, friends are one whom u call when u need them (of course there’s some limitation to it) when u hang out together with them, when u do silly things together with them and friends are one which u enjoy being together with them.
If friends were to be the treasure of earth to me, then my inner friends would be my body parts to whom which I took good care of them, concern about them and they are part of my life, It’s just hard to live without them. They are liken to parts of the blood in my body. Planting life, colour and joy in me. They make up the most of who-I-am and what-I-am.
There are some them who is in my inner circle, but they did not seems to be like in the eye of others, thou I did not talked to them often, of hang out with them often, deep in our heart we do know that we cherish this friendship of ours. They are what I called them as “silence friends”. I miss his bear hug..!!
Talking about my inner friend, not many of them know who am I, this is because I rarely talk when we’re together therefore it’s hard for them to know me, only a hand full of them truly knows who am I, what I am thinking and my personalities.
So some of us might be thinking what is that got to do with the title of the post and the content of the post, both of them seem unconnected right? Well, it’s the number, it’s when I’m having my recollection, I found out that there’s always a same number which appear in my calculation of friends, the number seven.
This number seven means a lot to me, thou it might be what as one of my friends told me “it’s my bad luck number”, but to me it’s a very special numbers. When I was recollecting those memories, I found out that there’s many thing which I can connect with he number seven.
Firstly, seven is the number in which we 1st form our group it’s a group which we formed when we’re young, since young the seven of us clicked together and always together. When u want to find one of us, search for the rest of the six and u will find the one. We’re so close to the extend that one senior ask us “give me 10 reasons why the seven of u always clicked together”
Secondly, seven is also a number of close friends, which I have during my three years of short term theological training course, they are the group which I clicked the most during theolo and we share a lot of things together, games, guys talk or even sometimes girls talk, we join in almost everything and we’re almost transparent before each and everyone of them. I did rank them accordingly, but the ranking given by me is after the theological and thus, not all of them knows about the ranking stuff. I am calling them by their rank now. Whenever I see them I’ll call them by “No.1#” , “No.7#” or to whatever rank they are.
And therefore it’s the number, the number seven that strike me the most, deep down into me during my recollection.
haha..wake up late today..ish!! woke up at 8.45am I think, once I realize that I woke up late I didn’t care much about the cold water which I have to bath with, straight bath then rush down to find something to eat. Found nothing but a pot of yesterday “tong sui” which is boil by my grandma. Without thinking further, I took a bowl of it as my breakfast..
late to work by 5min, non of the lawyers are there, but I got teased by ka ma this morning...zzz..
it’s 11am now, finished with the 10 letters I got as my job when I reach office, now I got nothing to do.. BORING~
**updated up till before lunch** -Monday- -20th of July-
Again the atmosphere in the office changes, it change for the better this time, previously I’ve left out a part on purpose just because I do not want to give an bad impression of my working place, but now here I would blog about it. It all started when the server are down. And so it happened as two of our staff starting arguing and arguing..no shouting was incurred and the quarrel was in a very sarcastic way, this quarrel brings down the whole office environment down to a dead mode. And so since, the sever problem was fixed today, the quarrel goes off and the environment of the office restored to it’s happy and lively condition. Yea, today the staff also seems to be more cheerful and we do really talked more today..hehe..
Yesterday mrs.pheilo approach me, asking me when will I be leaving, I tole her I’ll be there until 31 of July. Then she said “ so fast a..?” I think I got the clue from her, it’s so obvious that she wants me to stay here and help the firm out, this is because the firm now is in lack of legal clerk, imagine 2 legal clerk working under 6 lawyers, if I left the firm, both kak ma and mrs.pheilo is going to have a hard time working out the legal document. So should I leave? *thinking* after 2 sec *done thinking*
I’ll still leave..haha…I know I’m bad..
Since morning, I’ve finished typing two document and finished a case on bankruptcy. I was called to typed by mrs.pheilo so I’ve type it, passed to her and then she passed to mr.ravi den mr.ravi passed back to her for amendment and then she pass it back to me for amendment..hehe, just e-mailed the case to the client and then now typing this post again.hehe
I always used office hours to do my personal stuff..hehe…this is because I’m too free liao..not much work was givint to me to do.so..i prepare my blog post lor..hehe..
*after lunch*
I got this feeling that they are throwing me to Mr.balan this is because Mr.balan PA, personal assistance which is evon had resign from the firm, thus leaving the slot empty, They ad been asking me to follow on mr.balan cases, a bit scare of the task. Mr.balan is one of the busiest lawyer we had.. he’ll be at court everyday and each day, he’ll be having 3 to 4 cases to follow on. See how ti goes bah.. -Friday- -17th of July-
Got a translation work yesterday, it almost burst my head doing the translation. Since yesterday (after lunch), I was busying working with the translation stuff. There are many terms in which I almost spend more than half an hour just to figure out how to translate it, terms such as “ confidence building measure” this is indeed a great one. I’ve spend tons and tons of minutes figuring out this one and asked kak ma about it, but even kak ma cant translate it for me and she called me to translate it as far as I can go. And therefore I had created a new “term” in Malay language.
*Don’t laugh at me if I got it wrong*
This is how I translate it
“ satu ukuran perbangunan yang berkeyakinan”
okie, I know it sounds funny, even when I’m typing it out here I laughed at myself, but it’s believe to be the best that I can do what to do? My Bm is so weak hmm, should work hard on my bahasa? Neh~ nop it’s a never haha (n_n)
*After lunch*
I’ve finished the file and handed it up. Now I’m left again with nothing to do, so I make sure I got things to do, and the things is? Typing my daily diary so that I can post everything up to the blog once internet is reconnected..hehe..maybe searching for some more works later when I’m done with this..
I just remember yesterday night around late 10pm that yesterday was Wednesday, I totally forgot that yesterday was Wednesday and that eventually I’ve skipped the night prayer. Since I’ve skipped it, nothing much can be done. Therefore I just hoped that I will NEVER forget “WEDNESDAY” again. It’s a never to forget again, trying my best not to forget it..!! can someone please remind me it’s Wednesday?
I’ve realize one thing today, which is all case are the same, as lawyers we are not obliged to choose our case, when there’s a case we have to do it. Whatever the case is, when it’s present before us, we’ll try our best to do it, interest? It all depend on how u looked at the case, there’s two side to everything, if we looked from the bright side we’ll find some interest in the case.
By the way before I forgot, there’s a couple which came to the firm yesterday, the Boy claim that they wan to make a matrimony oath. And therefore, a form was given to them to fill in their details. Half way filling, *oppps* something happen, the guy misfiled the girl’s IC number, apparently a single digit was misfiled. And so the show began, the boy start blaming the girl for not filling herself and that he had misfiled. This s his claim “everything also I do for u, call u to fill yourself already wan, see what happened now? U cannot fill yourself meh?” he continues “ everything also I do for u, wan me to eat and sleep for u and u work for me anot?” upon hearing this, I was thinking to myself “what in the world make this guy up, he’s blaming others for his own mistake I’m pretty sure that the girl did not asked him to filled for her, y don’t u just accept that u’re wrong? stupid guy u don’t deserve to marry”, “even before marriage u are like that what happens after marriage? I don’t dare to imagine”
Actually there’s no big deal in misfiling the document, all u have to do is to have another one and refilled the document, there’s no need of blaming..the most it will hurt u is another Rm10(I think) to be spend.
Went to work as usual, following a new case, a not so interesting one typed everything out in 3hours, filed in and then rejected on the spot. Retyped again and then before I could hand in it’s lunch time. Not going to have lunch at home, this is because it’s one of the partners birthday today. The whole office is having lunch in the office to celebrate with Mr.Seah, it’s his 50th birthday. Dear, he’s so advance in age yet he dose not look like one, at 1st when I’ve told that is his birthday I assume that he’s around his young forty but when I found out that he’s at his fifty I’m surprise.
Anyway..
*inhale and exhale*
HAPPY BITRHDAY MR.SEAH..!!
*After lunch*
went back to work(typing out 2day diary) haha..seeking for work later..chao~
back, 5.04pm got a call from Mr.Deva, quite stunned, when he told me that he’s Mr.deva I’m like “uhuh…..” kla, stop crapping, he told me that he’s having a preview this Saturday at 9am. About the intake and all those stuff…how I pray that I passed my A-level and then enter inter this September.
**God please me, so that I can pass my a-level**
One thing which I’ve discovered myself in the course of this work is that, I’ve leaned how to become more longwinded. Compare to my previous post, this few post is for sure longer than the previous post.
It’s the 10th day of work, kind of getting use to this life of living now. When I was at home doing nothing, I realty feel that time pass slowly, every minute was like an hour to me and indeed having a big problem on how to kill time. But now, I feel that time passes swiftly. In a blink of an eye, an hour is gone, what has passed is a past, there is no way we would reverse the precious time which had gone.
When I reached office, I noticed that Ganesh is not in, maybe he went t the court hmm..i was still thinking of giving him my search result yesterday since he’s not in then I’ll keep it till he comes back. Starting up my computer, then kak ma approach me, “boy mana kau pergi semalam ya? Ganesh cari kau samapi tak tau macam mana tau? Dia Tanya-tanya samaada kau bagi kertas kepada siapa-siapa untuk bagi dia lar” it’s onli then I know that the authorities was to be used this morning in the court, he’s doing the appeal in the court this morning gosh!
When he came back, he dose not seems in good condition, I approach him and told him that I did not know that those authorities was needed this morning, he said it’s okay and that he never told me when he wants those search result. And so I asked him “how was the case this morning?” his reply “ I worked till 10pm last night searching authorities and making the appeal” I felt a bit guilty. It’s my fault that he stayed till 10pm finishing his work.
Went back to work, Ganesh wet out again.
*After lunch*
Finished my case and then I approach mrs.pheilo again. She said the ganesh is holding the note and that she got nothing to give me to do as for now, so I’ve spend my time here typing all this daily notes out. typed till 6pm and then cabut again.. -Tuesday- -14th of July-
As I worked, I really like this job, after finishing a case; it feels like I’ve helped the needy. It’s somehow satisfying knowing that we helped others going through their difficulties. Handed up the divorce case to Mrs. Phelio, then she checked and found out that my work are half done called me back and then she explain to me the other half of the work. After that, lunch time, the weather now at lunch is hazy can really see the sky clearly due to the concentration of the contaminated air, went back for lunch and have a short nap, wake up at 1.50 den wash my face den back to work. Went back to work, typing the other two file which I’ve left out, it’s not an easy task typing out the other two file, as both the two file are heavy in nature, a lot of typing work need to be done as it’s a 100+ pages work and therefore i cannot finished in a day or two. Half way working Ganesh approach me, I was quite stunted by the approach. This is because he never approach me before, all this while I was the one who make the approach. His reason of approaching me was not to amend the mistake I’ve done but to help him search for some authorities which he need. This is what he said “can u help me search for some authorities? Your stuff not urgent rite? come..” then I followed him to the library and he start flipping books and call me to search. I left my work aside and helped him to, search till 6pm then cabut again.
Today is a special date, it’s a day which I finish my boring case and then got a case which interest me a lot and I love doing it the most, a divorce case. yes!. As usual, reading through the materials that I had, among all the materials there’s one material that really grab my attraction it’s a diary written by one of the parties. In certain occasion I was tempted to read the diary which I did not know weather it’s all right to read or not and at last, what I do? I throw my work aside and then start read the diary. In the diary I found some dried tear droplets.
As I read, I really hate the other party. I feel like killing the other party, what the other party did cross the limit. Abandon the family; leaving spouse alone at home and never went back to the house after 2004. Who in the world create such human? His/her parents never taught him before? Ish..!!
Today is also a day with tears and laughter, as today is Evon, another legal clerk last day, she was hired by another law firm to work there. The reason for her left? The firm pay is higher. Humans are materialistic we cant blame them for what the are, and thus she left leaving two and not even a half legal clerk here..
Have u wonder who two and not even a half? It’s because there’s now 3 legal clerk in the office, namely Mrs.Phelio, kak ma and me which is the not even half clerk at times I feels that I’m more like a burden than a helping hand to them.
Rarely late for work since the 1st day of work, it was in one of the day which I was late by 5 min to office, but lucky none of the partners nor lawyers were there. And so, I escaped (n_n).
Working on the 2nd case again, not forgetting to mention, the things which interest me in this case is that this case have some relation to do with a shop where all of us had at lest gone there once in our entire life , the “7-11” market. Finished working with this case by the end of day 5 and handed up the Ganesh for “QC” (quality control) zzz..
It seems that my work is not trusted..*My work should not have been trusted at the 1st place*
7th day of work, went to Ganesh room begging for job, then he asked me to find Mrs. Phelio another legal clerk who’s also advance in age, experienced and I’m not sure weather she’s a lawyer, it’s written in one of her affidavit that she’s a lawyer, but her work here is more like a lawyer assistance than a lawyer. One thing for sure, she has the equal power in the office as Mr.Chandran, so don’t play play with her..actually Mrs.Phelio is very kind and nice. She gave me another file to do on. And as usual, another example is given so that things don’t go that wrong. I know there is for sure got to be some amendment to be done with my work, just to make sure that the amendment goes that wild they gave me and example.
This case, no that bad la, construction case. It’s not the best I’ve received yet but still manage to find some interest in it. And so I cant managed to finish this case within one day, when it reached 6pm. I also cabut liao..hehe..
Continue to search for authorities again, apparently I was bored flipping from one page to the other looking for cases and authorities and so I decided to close the case myself with 4 authorities. I’ve typed all the four authorities into the submission and reason it with my understanding on why should it be appealed and print it out as draft. The file was tied together with PINK ribbon, I don’t know why they use pink ribbons to tie a file, don’t they have any better colour? And so I handed up the case to the young lawyer, Ganesh and he called me to left it there, he said that he’ll check when he have time. At this point I’m afraid that I’ll be bored after lunch because this is the only file I had. Without any work I can be bored till death. When I was about to left, he called me “boy, what is your name again?” so I answered him and then he continues with “do u have anything else to do?” I quickly answered “NO” then he say “good “and pass me a file,
Yea, I’m having a new case to follow on, he gave me the file and explained to me everything clearly on what should I do with it he also gave me an example so that I can refer to it if I got blurred. Leaving the room my mind was as clear as crystal on what should I do, no more blurring session for me, I hate being blurred
Blurring makes me feel like I’m an idiot and in the same way it makes me feels like I’m lost. I really do not like that feeling which I had when I was working with the 1st case.
*After lunch*
And so, when went back to my sit, I began reading everything about the case again, every single detail about the case was read and then I begin to typed my version of ‘order of stay of execution’ I do not know weather my version of the thing is correct, all I did was just follow the example that was given and changed the body of the content. Before anyone know about it it’s already 6pm..
After what happen on the 1st day, I’ve committed not to be late or on time to office and thus, I wake up everyday at 8am (I’ve tried my best) just to make sure I reach office before 9am.
I reached office at about 8.50 today, I was surprise that the office was still empty, most of the workers are not there yet, and of course Mr. Chandran was already there by then if not I would not have entered into the office. It’s only about 8.55 when the workers start showing their face. All the partners are not in yet.
Today I spend the whole day crapping on why should the court bla bla bla..and then, after finishing the crapping session, my next problem..where should I find relevant cases to support my crap? Without authorities my crap will be a total crap and it would for sure not to be allowed. And so I approach kak ma again, Me : kak ma mana saya nak cari kes-kes relavant ya? Kak ma : err...kau cari la..tak dapat baru cari Ganesh. Me : siapa Ganesh? Kak ma : neh, budak lawyer yang dudunk dalam bilik tu Me : oh okie, thx kak ma.
It seems that kak ma didn’t even know where to find the case law, and thus without putting any effort in searching for the authorities, I approach Ganesh *at this point I was hoping that he would say “ put down I will search the authorities myself”* but it never happen instead this is what he says “there’s a library behind just beside the pantry go and find your cases there” and so my anticipation and everything else gone, and I have to search It myself.
Once I entered the library, it’s like ATC’s library, but slightly smaller,.4 wall was covered with book racks with books on it, there’s a ladder which connects to all four walls of the book rack and it’s a amazing place to hide myself, with al those books, I was really fond of the place. It’s the only place in the whole office which gives me peace and I feel like reading there. In the library there’s a computer which it is connected to the internet, one thing to take note on, not all computers are connected to the internet there’s only a hand full of computers not connected to it and mine was one of it..sobs..
And so I was there searching for authorities till the extend that I’ve forgotten it’s lunch time, kak ma to whom I told her that I’ll be at the library, came to the library and says “Boy, tak nak makan ke?” it’s only then I know it’s lunch time..hehe..
After lunch I continued with the search and right before work end, I found 2 authorities. I spend most of the time looking at things I should not have looked, don’t misunderstand me, I was looking at certain act, act such as PACE, UCTA, Police power and etc. all these are acts there, I took PACE and certain others and read it with pace hehe.. Therefore it’s because of the pace that I only found 2 authorities.
Yeppie, 2nd day of work. The atmosphere in the office dose not changed much, I’m still alone, stuck with the 14year old case, Dare not to ask Mr. Chandran on how should I do it. This is because Mr. Chandran is a very busy man, he came to office early in the morning and left the office around at 7pm every night it seems that he has unfinished work to do. His lunch time? God knows. When I went for lunch, he’s in the office, and when I’m back he’s still in the office, I did not know weather he went for lunch or not.
I’ve been very tired with work this few days, this is mainly contributed by my shallow understanding on how to do the submission, I’ve been trying very hard to figure out what to type, and it always ended up nothing. It’s at this time, when another person, to whom she’s called ‘Kak Ma’ her full name was actually Mashita, since she’s advance in age, we use to call her ‘Kak ma’ due to her golden age, my mane was always forgotten by her, whenever she wan to approach me? “BOY” this is how she call me..and ya, kak ma place is the only place which I have full view on. I don’t have a clear full view on the others place, this is due to the design of the working area, how pathetic.
Kaka ma is a legal clerk too which means I can approach her when ever I have problems..hehe.. and thus, without hesitation I asked kak ma on my work and it’s only then I totally realize on what my submission is really on. Basically the submission is a submission in which we filed to the court telling them why should the case be appealed, and together with that authorities must be given to support. At the time when I heard this, I was relief and yet scared. The things in which makes me relief is that I finally knows what I’m working on and that I can start my work, the things which make me scared is that this submission will be filled to the Federal Court of Malaysia, since then I’m having tension on this submission.
hmm..it’s the 1st day of work, actually not many of my friends know about my work..i presume only one from col and church friends not forgetting ding and et know about this, beside that I don’t recall telling such things to any of my friends.so it’s the 1st day of work, guess what I did? Eventually I did nothing, neglecting the alarm and thus waking up at 8.45am..OMG! Office at 9am.Straight jump out from the bed den brush my teeth and at lastly bathed, i skipped my breakfast that morning..sobs..hungry neh…I reached office sharp at 9am. Hmm..guess wat I’ve been called by Mr. Ravi, one of the partners there and he’s also the one who interviewed me..
So he began giving lesson on punctuality and being early to work..both as an legal clerk and a lawyer..his speech last only for awhile and straight after that Mr. Chandran (our office-in-charge) was summon by him and then I was brought to my sitting place.
Everyone expect that they’ll be bored with the 1st day of work, this things eventually wont happen on the 1st day of work in a law firm. Upon sitting on my beautiful and comfortable couch, I was thrown with 2 files; one who is for me to do and the other is a reference on how to do. 1st I have to read about 3 to 4 inch of letters, claim, counter claim and judgment. It’s only after all of that, and then I can refer to the reference and start working on the submission for appeal. Oh, before I forget, the case I’m working on? A 14year old case which started on 1995. See Malaysia jurisdiction is always like that, what to do? Since we’re living in this country there’s nothing better to do than to adept with it.
And so I spend 3 hours reading all the required knowledge about the case and then start to flip through the reference submission, even though I’ve flip through the reference, I still got no idea how to do..not mentioning where to find the cases.
And thus I’ve wasted almost 5 hours idling there doing nothing but staring at the monitor and the white printed black papers. The time I’m looking forward to? Basically 1pm and 6pm, lunch break and end of the day..
This is my 1st day of work. -Wednesday- -1st July-
as most of us know..I'm having break now..and therefore i got nothing better to do beside staying at home and fetching my grandma, brother sister and etc.
being a driver is indeed a light task and thus, leaving me with ample of free time in between.. therefore I've decided to search for templates and managing this blog of mine..
in actual fact, this template has already caught my eye the 1st time i saw it.. but then, once again..i was stupid enough at that time not knowing how to upload this template as it's in XML form..
after much trial and error i managed to discover the way of uploading such form of template..hehe.. and so, this template which i adore so much..came to life..^^
i need some feedback on this template. .do throw ur opinion on me pls. .
2day as mention, can be rated as one of the most unlucky day ever happen to me, or should i say to my family members as well..there's actually 2 unfortunate event happened to both my mum and I.
concerning things happen to me, it started when i was asked to fetch one of my cousin to her piano class..i've accepted that and thus, at 7.20pm i have to fetch her to her piano class..
the plan was, fetching her to piano class, followed by the night market to buy some bread, then go back home and lastly at 8.15pm..fetch my cousin to my aunt house..
after fetching my cousin to her piano class..we head to the night market..which the journey lead us to a road which is small and yet big enough for 2cars (my opinion, it pretty much depend on the driver thou). when i was entering the road, another car (citra) was there and thus as usual, i tried to go through there with the mind set that it would be in the normal course of state..where both driver move towards their side..and thus i moved on..i've tried to go as left as i could till the extend that i'm few centimeters away form falling into the drain, while the other party..idk weather he knew about my intention did not so, leaving ample spaces there.. and thus..i've scratched his car at his right rear bumper.. scratching was not the problem. the things which makes me so darn freaking mad was their reaction towards those scratches..when they come out from the car..(yar..u are not wrong..they, a 30+ aged couple) the 1st thing they do is that they yelled at me "do u know how to drive" says the man then i tried to tell him what was my intention. . and the women( which is a bitch of no better use other than to be f****d.. ) started her cursing with her bird voice..voices just like one which Pn.Dana have..imagine her cursing there non-stop with the bird voice(**harloo~ i onli scratched your car..adn it's onli a amall part of it..wat for the cursing?**)..and thus, my sis called my father and he rushed there..as soon as my father reached..then the true negotiation starts,this is because i felt that what ever message which i tried to convey to him was nothing but void to him..after that we urgent to the night market..at the night market, i brought some icey stuff to cool down myself..and it prove to be effective..^-^
thinking back now, i still hate the bitch..!! i feel like sending her to hell ( if only i can i could i will..!!)
okie..the second incident which happen to my mum was she got stuck in the toilet..she twisted her ankle last Friday when she was coming down from the stair..and thus she's unable to work 2day..
about the toilet stuff? hmm..lets out it this way..usually when she enter the toilet she dont lock the door..it so happen that 2day when entered the toilet..she suddenly remember to lock the door and then she lock it lor..after that..when she wanna come out from it. .she cant unlock the door as the whole thing is not working. .and thus she knock on the door struggling to come out. .we rushed to the toilet door and tried to open it by twisting the handle and so on..but it prove ineffective..and thus, we call upon our two of the best workmen available in our home..my 3rd and 4th uncle..they tried their best to open it but it seems that the door is stubborn, refusing to let my mum out..and thus the family rule apply..
what is the family rule? *when u cant fix it..u break it* that's out family rule..and thus we break the handle and everything which is of the handle..and there comes out my mum..safe and sound..
and that's the two unfortunate event happen 2day . .which puts the 17th of June 2009 into the top list for worst day of the year 2009..
